Four weeks ago, at work, I drew a line in the sand and said what I thought and what I believe to be true, not what someone wanted to hear, but exactly what I thought. I felt in my gut that if I did this I might be fired. I did it anyway, because it was the right thing. Anyone I asked said,
“Oh no, you’ll never be fired for that!”
Somewhere deeper than I can explain though, I felt it, I knew this choice might just tip the scales.
The GIFT was knowing it was the right thing and could cause a problem and still doing it. To speak up after all these years of not really speaking up, not just at work, but in life in general. The consequence of not speaking up this time was too great. I was losing myself and my voice. Feeling lost is not enough for me anymore.
I WAS fired just shy of one week ago today. I feel fortunate that even in the moment when I was being fired I understood that it too was GIFT and a choice. A push, a challenge – to be true to myself, to say what I mean from the most authentic place inside myself.
I never, ever imagined that there would come a day when I would say that I was fired. I’ve worked since I was 7 years old and I’ve never once been fired. But, now that I have been, it’s one more thing I don’t have to fear. I thought this was the worst thing that could ever happen and now I realize it’s not, I’m sure there is something worse. I get the opportunity to reinvent myself, become a little better than before and to be more authentically me.
I do wish the conversation would have gone a bit differently, more genuine, but that was their choice. Now it’s my choice how I deal with it. I’m a little angry and bitter and am letting those feelings run their course instead of stuffing them back like I would have years ago. I know I’ll be fine, everything ALWAYS works out as it should, even if it’s a tough road to get there, or the end is not as you expected.
Here’s to what’s next in the world, what’s now. We can have whatever we want in life, we just need to ask for it, to choose it.
I’m not quite sure what the future holds, but I’m asking that whatever it is, it allows me the time to finish my book – oh and it has to be amazing. Definitely.
Because of my new found freedom, I’ll have the chance to write more and I’ll be posting here two or three times a week, I promise to keep them shorter than this one and hopefully, they’ll be interesting to you.
What do you want to ask for that you think you can’t have?
What PUSH do you need to move forward?